PROFILE
Heyyo.As you can see above,tat is the picture of us..the one on ur left is shay.aka.baby and the one on ur right is skiee.aka.wanniie.We are best friends and we will forever be.We love shopping and dressing up and absolutely love everything about fashion.We are currently fourteen years old and ar studying in canberra secondary school.If you wanna know more about us,you can read our posts..
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heyyo !
i'm still not in the mood ryte now..the only thing i really wanna say is tat i'm officially single and available..and the only thing i'm not happy about is that for my niece to be such a gundu..i dun really mean everything i say..okay fine..maybe i do but that doesn't mean that she should tell _ _ _ _ _ wat i said ryte..
we were about to be cool with each other but when my niece told him something it all jus went haywire..well,the worst thing is that everything ended with jus a last msg frm him to me..i cried like the whole day..so easy said,we are official enemies ryte now..i feel like jumping off a building..why is it when it was all gonna go my way,it jus ends..he jus doesn't know how i feel..
to you :
do you even care bout how i feel..u made me fall for you but then u end up leaving me..what's the point??do you even know how heartbroken i am??i bet you don't even care..u pernah tanye i if i love you sampai mati..and my answer wasn't N0..
abeh skarang saper yg bastard saper??u fikir u sorang jek ader prasaan..u kater u tk suker matrep and minahrep..and u said i looked like one..kay fine..i changed for your sake..now??
everything's gone now..thanks alot for breaking my heart..evnthough i noe that i'm nothing without you and no one can replace you,i have to learn to let go of you and go on with life..u kater kalau u tinggalkn i,i covered..fyi,i'm not covered at all..
wani harap wani dapat jumper _ _ _ _ _..just for the last time..was it that easy for you to take me out of your heart and mind..if yours was simply easy then i've got nothing to say..one thing's for sure,mine won't be easy at all..well,goodluck with your life..takecare uh..Labels: should i continue loving you??
2009 Singapore Idol
Sezairi Sezali
Congratulation to Sezairi .
I won't deny the fact that he was DAMN good .
And the winning song?-' Touched By An Angel '
It was obvious that he sang that song, ' Touched By An Angel' , way , way better than Sylvia .
Eventhough , there's some speculation that the judges were being biased-that song was actually meant for Sylvia and blah blah blah crap- Sezairi still managed to pull it through .
Having said that , I still support Sylvia .-She's very pretty ! And her voice is so sexy !
I just hope that this time , the runner-up won't be 'disappearing' like the other two .
Hmm .
-Oh and .... Another malay idol ..... Sigh
But y'know what??
It's Ok .
For the very first time , it was finally a healthy competion .
Both of them have a 50/50 chance of winning .
To both of them ; I love you .-haha
Alright .
Till then~
Peace
-Shay
Hello love .
My name's Love .
Oh LOVE................
I'm in love...............-(crap !)
OK . Here are the real post .
It ain't about love .
But something I would like to share with you .
It's about yesterday .
And there's only one word to describe yesterday and that's DISASTER .
Seriously .
Firstly ; I'm sick .-And I'm still v sick today .
Secondly;it's the dates .(the triple dates)
One word ; wth !
or, more properly said, three words; what the hell?
Gosh .
OK .
I'll stop here .
I don't want to spoil my mood for........
Oh and.............
Did I mention that I'm going to watch Singapore Idol Final Live ?!
Yes?
No?
Ok , I'm going to Singapore indoor stadium later and I'm rooting for Sylvia !
'Yesterday was history , tommorow is mistery , but today.........is a gift'
Hell yea !
And with that , I'll end this post .
-Shay
boohoo !
i'm not really in the mood rite now but this is the only place i can pour everything out..
rite now i'm having some fucking problem with some b*****d...
sumpah irritating..
doesn't mean i'm not a m_ _ _ h i cannot befriend those kind of ppl..
wat kind of person would get angry just because i had an outing with those kind of ppl..
and to be honest i hate those ppl who looks down on _ _ _ and _ _ _ _ _...
YOU are not the only one in this world who has feelings kay..
even though they just seem so problematic,they do have feelings aite..
and it feels so irritating that i have to put up with your ________..
it's just so difficult being N0T single..
to Y0U : if you wanna be angry,tell me the reason why and dun be coward to say sumting before you hang up the fucking telephone aite..
BASTARD !!
Words of wisdom
Could you and your swollen ego fit into my master plan for failure?
Creation imperfect.
Your head in your hands, and this is my cue; if THREE words could heal you, I'll only speak two.
I take the shame to heart and lock it away in a place that sees not the light of day.
Silence only justifies this act of cowardice.
This is your freedom in a life of fallacy,with no last kiss, no regrets & no good bye.
I will use it when I see your face again.
Unleash the rage built up in my throat
Show how you hurt me and hopefully you see you have the power to destroy my will to live.
But it is not destroyed. That's why i'm plotting my master plan for revenge.
Not too soon, not so soon.
Did you ever look, did you ever see that one person,and the subtle way that they do these things and it hurts so much? So much like choking down the embers of a great blaze. It's that moment when your eyes seem to spread aspersionsand to scream confessions at the insipid sky parting clouds.You let this one person come down in the most perfect moment. And it breaks my heart to know the only reason you are here now is a reminder of what I'll never have.
quote of the day
''A PROBLEM SHARED
IS
.
.
.
...
.
.
A PROBLEM MULTIPLIED.''
ok .
I'm done !!
peace.
-Shayy
At last .
I post .
Hello .
Oh well , I've been busy lately .
Way too much things going on in my life .- but I'm happy with my life now .
You'know , through all this , I've learnt a couple of valuable lessons .
One of them was , ''Don't judge a book by its cover''-sound familiar huh?
Hmm .
Sometimes , people are like that for a reason .
A reason which we don't understand .
But , GIVE THEM TIME .
They're actually a very nice individuals .
Like you , even me , we each made mistakes right .?
But to that someone , I just wanted to say this ;''Bunga bukan sekuntum , Kumbang bukan seekor.''-malay proverb .
And there's a saying ; 'Don't kill the entire trees for one tree.'
I seriously felt much,much better after msging her .
Hmm .
Kay .
Don't wish to elaborate much about this .
Oh yea .
I also learnt this; ''through fears became a believer'' -adapt from the the mentalist .
You'know I'm no longer scared of getting lost .
Hmm . LONG STORY !
Okay !
Goodnight then !
-Shay
heyy readers..today i'm seriously sad..i really feel like crying..someone didn't reply my message..is it coz he was angry bout yesterday??but what happened yesterday wasn't totally my fault..abang decided to sleep in my room ad he was on the phone with qila all the way till 6am..he asked me to text him once abang went out of my room but abang did not go out at all..how i wish i could really tell you this..but whatever it is i'm really very sorry...i don't even feel like sleeping rite now coz it's really weird to not hear ur voice the whole day.especially when we usually talk on the phone at nite..just now i somehow vent my anger/sadness on razy..i'm really sorry yaw..and i've been day dreaming the whole day..actually just hoping he would just reply my message..mama realized that..well,that's not the only thing mama realized..mama even realized that there was a guy's picture in my handphone and it's someone she doesn't know...she asked me who it was but i just kept quiet..actually,i don't really mind telling her coz she's very understanding and doesn't mind if i befriend the opposite gender..but papa was inside the car so i had no other choice but to keep quiet...hmm..i really hope/wish/want him to message me tmrw..
till here..
-wanniie.skiee-
Labels: i miss you..
heyyo readers !!
I'ts 11.06 now and i'm still awake..
supposed to conference with some ppl but they all macam blur so i lazy to entertain..(ader orang tu suro skiee online sbb nak chat beh nnty baru call..check2 dier tk bbl..)
hmm..
i'll be going out with nephews and nieces...
watching new moon..
planned to ask hafiz and fauzy to follow but coz hafiz does not want to follow so both of them won't be following..
hmm..
okay gtg..
-wanniie.skiee-
Oh yes !
I FORGOT something .
''Happy birthday Taufiq''
Honey , I hope you (*cough,cough.) put the ring on it. I will wait for you , forever .
Age doesn't matter .
What matters the most is that we love each other .
-dream on girl !!!!!!!!!!!
-shay
Good morning .
And LOVE sucks .
big time .......
"Its hard to pretend you love someone when you don't but its harder to pretend that you don't love someone when you really do"
"A million words would not bring you back, I know because I tried, neither would a million tears, I know because I cried"
"I dont miss him, I miss who I thought he was"
Boyfriends. What are they?-Companions of women (and sometimes men), and plays a role of someone who is always there for her. One that would shove his shoe in another man's throat if he were to harm her. One to help her, guide her, in any way he could. One that acts five times more caring, loving, and a hundred times more protective, than an ordinary good friend. Boyfriends are always there, never leaving her alone, always filling in the empty holes. Always guarding her, emotionally, physically. someone who'd hold her hand and walk with her out into the light after being in the dark so long. someone who sees her angelically beautiful no matter how she actually looks like. Who'll always try to make her smile. give her everything, because she is special, and nothing else is worth so much, even her weight in gold. Who'd run a thousand miles, who'd break and ache and cry and die for her. Someone, who connects with the soul. Someone who'll love her.
and here I am, trying to do it all by myself. I might as well be my own boyfriend now. It is time folks, for me to grow that thing under my skirt .
-------------------------------IT'S OVER--------------------------------
-Shay
''Happiness is only achieved by accepting your life as it is,
imperfections and all.''-the fray(I think it's 'the fray'.)
Now , why am I complaining about life.?
First of all , a warm hello to all .
Here goes my misery .
Exhaustion after exhaustion, day after day. If time could fly, it would, so I wouldn't feel the tire too much. But, sadly enough, it didn't.
Contradicting days, roller-coaster ride of emotions. I've spent too much time worrying before, I didn't really seized the free moments. or spend it more effeciently.
But Happiness............?
You tell me .
How am I going to find happiness.?
When my life is so miserable .?
First thing first ; I hate yesterday .
Yesterday was like the worst day ever-seriously .
Firstly it was scorching hot , I was dehydrated and plummeting down to hyperventilating. I was dying, it was burning since morning all the way to noon. My parents had a small disagreement and I was forced to walk a thousand mile with them .
It was insane , ridiculous and humiliating .
Just as I thought it was over(and that was when I reached home),I had this huge disagreement with my brothers and parents(my family members ) .-I wish I could bottle up my anger and just stay calm .
But I didn't .
And as a result ?
I vent my anger on BILLY .-POOR THING you know.?
I kicked BILLY when she was trying to cheer me up !
 This picture is dedicated to her.............
peace..........
-Shay
Hello readers .
Since it's midnight ..
I would like to talk about.............
Love............
Firstly; I'm sorry for the font . or rather the colour of the font .
But don't blame me .
You know that''love is in the air'' .?-and i'm in love...(i am?)
SO here goes................
Love hurts. Burns. Kills. Whatever you wanna put it. Love at this age is only an infatuation towards the opposite sex. It brings you troubles, it brings you sins. Love at this age makes you slip away from your family bit by bit, and makes it hard for you to study. Talking all night, sleeping all day, unhealthy. Love can also influence you into doing things you'd never imagine doing. Like running away. Like not coming home. Like sex. Love pretends to hover close and protect you, but by fact it's actually just you, forming images of all worthwhile trust and faith. Love immitates courage and pretends to treasure. Love starts beautifully, shaping itself into sunshine and butterflies and rainbows and rainy hearts. Then, it betrays you and hurts you, torturing your emotional room, physically tormenting you, literally screaming at you. Then, love leaves you, having done its deed. SO you see, love is bad. It's stupid. It's worthless. It's dumb. It burns. Love burns.
SOMEBODY PLEASE, PROVE ME WRONG.
And yes .
Somebody did just that .-proving me wrong .
Ok .
Time for me to sleep already .
Goodnight .
Lots of love;
-Shay
Whoah . Yes whoah .
And 'Assalamualaikum' to all .-may peace be upon you,readers.
I've been missing out .
Neh , More like being forgetful about some stuff .
Haziq birthday.?
Wow . I totally forgot .
Ok .............
Anyways , about Skiee .
I was inform about her vacation thingy .
I hope you'll be alright there .
Next;sorry for not posting .
Busy with some stuff.
Going out with my mum to somewhere .
Somewhere................
And then , going out with my sugar to somewhere .
Somewhere............
Oh yea . To Skiee;everything seems to be going my way now..
Well,pretty much .
It's a good thing that everything seems to be going to plan .
Except one .
OK. Enough . Enough .
Alright . I think I'm done .
Sorry for the boring post today .
Yes . That's me . I'm a very boring person indeed .
It will only get interesting when I have too much problems in my life .
And that happens a lot of time . -which is kinda frustating and yes suckish .
Ok . Didn't I said enough already .?
I think I've been complaining way too much .
It's time for me to...........
Just enjoy my life-which is impossible I guess .
That's why they said;
''YOU HAVE TO LOSE
TO LEARN HOW TO WIN.''
Ok . I'll end this post .Peace !
Lots of love;
-Shay
heyyo there !
the most important thing right now is that i'm really aware that my twin is really really sad..i will be going to malaysia in another 21 hours time..so when i come back,it's gonna be my duty to make her happy..shay,kene rindukn skiee tau..i will definately miss you even more as i've been missing you since the last time we met..and bout those pictures that you uploaded,i won't be asking you to remove them coz this blog does not belong to me alone..alrite..maybe this would be my last post till the 15th unless i get to use the computer there and be able to update this blog..but just like we all know,usually there won't be computers in those kampung style houses rite..unless i'm lucky enough and we'll be going back to the condominium(putra place)..i'll take some pictures of the goats there..and i'll upload them here..hehe..i'm looking forward to this so called vacation but i'm having second thoughts as my grandma is still sick in the hosp and none of my parents will be going with me..(not even my brother)..hmm..so i'll try to mange by myself..i'm planning on buying haziq's patrick star if they do sell..hmm..i will definately get my twinnie sumting too..i'm sure you're curious of who i'll be staying with as my parents aren't coming along rite ?.. well,i'll be staying at my aunty's place in penang..she has two houses and owns a goat farm..she takes care of the goat herself..besides goats,she also has chickens and turkeys..i'll be going there with two of my other cousins..i hope i'll have fun..okayy that's about it so i'll end y post now..
-wanniie.skiee-
(Sigh)
Yes (sigh) and hello readers .
Well .
Today seems to be the bestest day ever.(NOT)
I think I'm about to lose my mind .-not literally ofcause .
Hmm . There's just too much , way too much things going on with my life .
Rejected ....
in life .
Family problem is one thing .
Love is the other thing .
I don't know .
All this jinx ....
I mean why me.?
At some point , I was hoping that all this misery will end soon but it just get worse every minute .
This jinx ......(sigh)
Just make my life miserable ......
Am I that unlucky.?.
If not then why everyone treated me like I'm born to be treated that way .?
-Should I blame myself for letting everyone treated me like that.?
-Or should I specifically put the blame on my parents for driving me nuts everyday.?
-OR is it God.?-GOD is the one who should be blame .
GOD is the one who's being unfair to me .
Or maybe.... This is fate .
Its already written on my book .-That I'm going to lead a jinx life .
Being unlucky , social reject and all the jinx things .
OK . I exaggerated a bit but seriously, I think I NEED to see a psychiatrist .
Because I'm already losing my mind .-to think straight, to think right .
I NEED to be placed somewhere far from my family members(namely my parents) and friends.
I NEED to be alone .
I NEED to rest .-both physically and mentally .
I just want to be..............
relax .
I mean no pressure from anyone .
Hmm..
You know what.?
Sometimes,I wonder why GOD wants me here.?-on earth . with my family .
Why must I be alive.?
again .
I mean .
I'm already dead .
But I'm alive again .
Why?
Why should there be a need for reincarnation.?-not so sure if this is the right word .
Well , I just have one request to ask .
LET ME DIE . in peace .
Only then , people will stop disturbing me.
People will stop making my life miserable .
Only then , people will feel remorseful about what they did to me .-They felt so bad that their heath had deteriorated and they DIE........................
Hmm. Believe me , this world will be much better without them . without us . Human beings .
''it hurts me to see you smile,
it makes you smile to see me hurt.''-to him .
-Shay
Hello december .
It's a month to be jolly because it's winter !-(in singapore!)-.-
Well , it's been like ages since I post .
And I'm truly sorry for that .
First of all it's about 5am , and I'm still bright awake .(thanks to the unpredictable disease-huh?)
The pain was unbearable ; it was like a form of abusement to myself .
And yes . All thanks to that box of strawberry or should I say boxes?
Next; about my part not updating this blog-I had a very busy schedule lately .
-attend a teacher's wedding .
-went to cold storage with my bro .
went to supermarket with my mum .
-going crazy and emotional .
and the list goes on...
Well , there's just too much things going on with my life .
Some were heartbreaking moments .
While others are just to painful to remember .-(funny but isn't it the same thing? heartbreaking and painful . )
There were a few though that makes me happy . Unfortunately , there's just far too many things that makes me.........don't even want to think about it....
Oh yea , I realised something ; that dreams can be true . -(Dejavu?)
As I realised that my dreams were mostly true , most of them came to reality .
But , those dreams are not the 'planned' dream .
It came by itself .
Without me planning it . (something I always do before I go to sleep)
But there's a catch .
Not all dreams(which came true) are great .
I won't deny the fact that some of the dreams makes me very happy .
But , there were some thats makes me.......................sad.
''Happiness is hard to find .''
'' When you find it , you better hold on tight . ''
''When the music is on , there's bound to be trouble''-Adapt from the mentalist .
And with that I'll end this post .
-Shay
heyys..
i'm finally back from such a long holiday..(sampai empat kereta 8-sitter pergi..lol)..it was supposed to be a 2-days-1-night thing but ended up being 5-days-4-nights thing..[to shay : sorry for not informing you bout the extension of the outing..my battery went flat and i did not bring my charger as i wasn't ready for a long one..] alrite,now i'll tell you about what happened back at sentosa..basically we did different things on different days..
day one : we went for the fort siloso tour..it was damn tiring as the tramp left us at one place and we had to walk and explore the place ourself..we even got lost as we were not familiar with that place..i was wearing 2 pieces of t-shirts and 2 pairs of pants..it really made my life even more miserable..then we went back to the chalet,took a bathe and got ourselves changed..we had our dinner and went to watch 'songs of the sea'
day two : we went to the under water world..we saw sharks and unbelievably big fishes like sting ray..there were some who were stuck to the glass..i also found out that the cleaners were supposed to swim inside the tank or aquarium(i duno what it's called)..and so may people were like gathering around it just because they want to take a picture of the cleaner.. we also went to do some shopping..we bought some swimsuits,slippers and bags..
day three : we woke up quite late as we were exhausted after two very long days..it was almost 2pm when i went out of the shower.. we changed into the appropriate attire and went to the beach..we spend hours just having fun in the sea..we even played hopscotch and a marble game..it was really hard to play hop scotch with our foot wear on..we met someone at the beach..his name was captain palawan and we played games with him..he was very friendly but i love his hair the most..L0L..he told us to count to 50 facing the front and then to look for him..we searched everywhere but we still could not find him so we decided to give up on him..we went to clean ourselves up..i didnt know we took quite a long time as when we went out of the shower room,for all we know it was already dark..we went back to the chalet,had our dinner and went to sleep..
day four : on day four we spent more time in the chalet..at about 2+,we went out and visited the dolphin lagoon..dolphins are seriously very cute..we enjoyed it very much..we went to the gift shop to buy a few dolphin plushies..i bought one for myself too but i gave it to my cousin as she liked it..i know i'm kind-hearted..hehe..it was the last night we would be spending there so we decided to watch the songs of the sea again..i really enjoyed it and i admire the way they emphasize the main point,that is multi-racial in singapore..i am very sure the younger ones would enjoy it the most..
day five : we checked out early as we already planned the day..we went to escape theme park after having our lunch..i was having the time of my life..we ran about the whole theme park acting like kids..we also went in the haunted house..it was really scary..i don't recommend it for shay..there was a man in a skeleton suit following us wherever we..there were even cemetery..i was so scared that i grabbed hold of my cousin's hand..i looked down all the way..i screamed all the way till the end..there was a point where i didnt want to continue the journey but since was holding on to my cousin's hand,he pulled me and told me to look down if i was scared..[sumpah muke pucat biler keluar]..we washed up at the toilet there and went for dinner at beach road..it was difficult to find seats as there were 33 of us in total..(sumpah kecoh)..we spent hours just eating and reached home at about 12+...
-wanniie.skiee-Labels: i wish it would happen again
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heyyo !
i'm still not in the mood ryte now..the only thing i really wanna say is tat i'm officially single and available..and the only thing i'm not happy about is that for my niece to be such a gundu..i dun really mean everything i say..okay fine..maybe i do but that doesn't mean that she should tell _ _ _ _ _ wat i said ryte..
we were about to be cool with each other but when my niece told him something it all jus went haywire..well,the worst thing is that everything ended with jus a last msg frm him to me..i cried like the whole day..so easy said,we are official enemies ryte now..i feel like jumping off a building..why is it when it was all gonna go my way,it jus ends..he jus doesn't know how i feel..
to you :
do you even care bout how i feel..u made me fall for you but then u end up leaving me..what's the point??do you even know how heartbroken i am??i bet you don't even care..u pernah tanye i if i love you sampai mati..and my answer wasn't N0..
abeh skarang saper yg bastard saper??u fikir u sorang jek ader prasaan..u kater u tk suker matrep and minahrep..and u said i looked like one..kay fine..i changed for your sake..now??
everything's gone now..thanks alot for breaking my heart..evnthough i noe that i'm nothing without you and no one can replace you,i have to learn to let go of you and go on with life..u kater kalau u tinggalkn i,i covered..fyi,i'm not covered at all..
wani harap wani dapat jumper _ _ _ _ _..just for the last time..was it that easy for you to take me out of your heart and mind..if yours was simply easy then i've got nothing to say..one thing's for sure,mine won't be easy at all..well,goodluck with your life..takecare uh..Labels: should i continue loving you??
2009 Singapore Idol
Sezairi Sezali
Congratulation to Sezairi .
I won't deny the fact that he was DAMN good .
And the winning song?-' Touched By An Angel '
It was obvious that he sang that song, ' Touched By An Angel' , way , way better than Sylvia .
Eventhough , there's some speculation that the judges were being biased-that song was actually meant for Sylvia and blah blah blah crap- Sezairi still managed to pull it through .
Having said that , I still support Sylvia .-She's very pretty ! And her voice is so sexy !
I just hope that this time , the runner-up won't be 'disappearing' like the other two .
Hmm .
-Oh and .... Another malay idol ..... Sigh
But y'know what??
It's Ok .
For the very first time , it was finally a healthy competion .
Both of them have a 50/50 chance of winning .
To both of them ; I love you .-haha
Alright .
Till then~
Peace
-Shay
Hello love .
My name's Love .
Oh LOVE................
I'm in love...............-(crap !)
OK . Here are the real post .
It ain't about love .
But something I would like to share with you .
It's about yesterday .
And there's only one word to describe yesterday and that's DISASTER .
Seriously .
Firstly ; I'm sick .-And I'm still v sick today .
Secondly;it's the dates .(the triple dates)
One word ; wth !
or, more properly said, three words; what the hell?
Gosh .
OK .
I'll stop here .
I don't want to spoil my mood for........
Oh and.............
Did I mention that I'm going to watch Singapore Idol Final Live ?!
Yes?
No?
Ok , I'm going to Singapore indoor stadium later and I'm rooting for Sylvia !
'Yesterday was history , tommorow is mistery , but today.........is a gift'
Hell yea !
And with that , I'll end this post .
-Shay
boohoo !
i'm not really in the mood rite now but this is the only place i can pour everything out..
rite now i'm having some fucking problem with some b*****d...
sumpah irritating..
doesn't mean i'm not a m_ _ _ h i cannot befriend those kind of ppl..
wat kind of person would get angry just because i had an outing with those kind of ppl..
and to be honest i hate those ppl who looks down on _ _ _ and _ _ _ _ _...
YOU are not the only one in this world who has feelings kay..
even though they just seem so problematic,they do have feelings aite..
and it feels so irritating that i have to put up with your ________..
it's just so difficult being N0T single..
to Y0U : if you wanna be angry,tell me the reason why and dun be coward to say sumting before you hang up the fucking telephone aite..
BASTARD !!
Words of wisdom
Could you and your swollen ego fit into my master plan for failure?
Creation imperfect.
Your head in your hands, and this is my cue; if THREE words could heal you, I'll only speak two.
I take the shame to heart and lock it away in a place that sees not the light of day.
Silence only justifies this act of cowardice.
This is your freedom in a life of fallacy,with no last kiss, no regrets & no good bye.
I will use it when I see your face again.
Unleash the rage built up in my throat
Show how you hurt me and hopefully you see you have the power to destroy my will to live.
But it is not destroyed. That's why i'm plotting my master plan for revenge.
Not too soon, not so soon.
Did you ever look, did you ever see that one person,and the subtle way that they do these things and it hurts so much? So much like choking down the embers of a great blaze. It's that moment when your eyes seem to spread aspersionsand to scream confessions at the insipid sky parting clouds.You let this one person come down in the most perfect moment. And it breaks my heart to know the only reason you are here now is a reminder of what I'll never have.
quote of the day
''A PROBLEM SHARED
IS
.
.
.
...
.
.
A PROBLEM MULTIPLIED.''
ok .
I'm done !!
peace.
-Shayy
At last .
I post .
Hello .
Oh well , I've been busy lately .
Way too much things going on in my life .- but I'm happy with my life now .
You'know , through all this , I've learnt a couple of valuable lessons .
One of them was , ''Don't judge a book by its cover''-sound familiar huh?
Hmm .
Sometimes , people are like that for a reason .
A reason which we don't understand .
But , GIVE THEM TIME .
They're actually a very nice individuals .
Like you , even me , we each made mistakes right .?
But to that someone , I just wanted to say this ;''Bunga bukan sekuntum , Kumbang bukan seekor.''-malay proverb .
And there's a saying ; 'Don't kill the entire trees for one tree.'
I seriously felt much,much better after msging her .
Hmm .
Kay .
Don't wish to elaborate much about this .
Oh yea .
I also learnt this; ''through fears became a believer'' -adapt from the the mentalist .
You'know I'm no longer scared of getting lost .
Hmm . LONG STORY !
Okay !
Goodnight then !
-Shay
heyy readers..today i'm seriously sad..i really feel like crying..someone didn't reply my message..is it coz he was angry bout yesterday??but what happened yesterday wasn't totally my fault..abang decided to sleep in my room ad he was on the phone with qila all the way till 6am..he asked me to text him once abang went out of my room but abang did not go out at all..how i wish i could really tell you this..but whatever it is i'm really very sorry...i don't even feel like sleeping rite now coz it's really weird to not hear ur voice the whole day.especially when we usually talk on the phone at nite..just now i somehow vent my anger/sadness on razy..i'm really sorry yaw..and i've been day dreaming the whole day..actually just hoping he would just reply my message..mama realized that..well,that's not the only thing mama realized..mama even realized that there was a guy's picture in my handphone and it's someone she doesn't know...she asked me who it was but i just kept quiet..actually,i don't really mind telling her coz she's very understanding and doesn't mind if i befriend the opposite gender..but papa was inside the car so i had no other choice but to keep quiet...hmm..i really hope/wish/want him to message me tmrw..
till here..
-wanniie.skiee-
Labels: i miss you..
heyyo readers !!
I'ts 11.06 now and i'm still awake..
supposed to conference with some ppl but they all macam blur so i lazy to entertain..(ader orang tu suro skiee online sbb nak chat beh nnty baru call..check2 dier tk bbl..)
hmm..
i'll be going out with nephews and nieces...
watching new moon..
planned to ask hafiz and fauzy to follow but coz hafiz does not want to follow so both of them won't be following..
hmm..
okay gtg..
-wanniie.skiee-
Oh yes !
I FORGOT something .
''Happy birthday Taufiq''
Honey , I hope you (*cough,cough.) put the ring on it. I will wait for you , forever .
Age doesn't matter .
What matters the most is that we love each other .
-dream on girl !!!!!!!!!!!
-shay
Good morning .
And LOVE sucks .
big time .......
"Its hard to pretend you love someone when you don't but its harder to pretend that you don't love someone when you really do"
"A million words would not bring you back, I know because I tried, neither would a million tears, I know because I cried"
"I dont miss him, I miss who I thought he was"
Boyfriends. What are they?-Companions of women (and sometimes men), and plays a role of someone who is always there for her. One that would shove his shoe in another man's throat if he were to harm her. One to help her, guide her, in any way he could. One that acts five times more caring, loving, and a hundred times more protective, than an ordinary good friend. Boyfriends are always there, never leaving her alone, always filling in the empty holes. Always guarding her, emotionally, physically. someone who'd hold her hand and walk with her out into the light after being in the dark so long. someone who sees her angelically beautiful no matter how she actually looks like. Who'll always try to make her smile. give her everything, because she is special, and nothing else is worth so much, even her weight in gold. Who'd run a thousand miles, who'd break and ache and cry and die for her. Someone, who connects with the soul. Someone who'll love her.
and here I am, trying to do it all by myself. I might as well be my own boyfriend now. It is time folks, for me to grow that thing under my skirt .
-------------------------------IT'S OVER--------------------------------
-Shay
''Happiness is only achieved by accepting your life as it is,
imperfections and all.''-the fray(I think it's 'the fray'.)
Now , why am I complaining about life.?
First of all , a warm hello to all .
Here goes my misery .
Exhaustion after exhaustion, day after day. If time could fly, it would, so I wouldn't feel the tire too much. But, sadly enough, it didn't.
Contradicting days, roller-coaster ride of emotions. I've spent too much time worrying before, I didn't really seized the free moments. or spend it more effeciently.
But Happiness............?
You tell me .
How am I going to find happiness.?
When my life is so miserable .?
First thing first ; I hate yesterday .
Yesterday was like the worst day ever-seriously .
Firstly it was scorching hot , I was dehydrated and plummeting down to hyperventilating. I was dying, it was burning since morning all the way to noon. My parents had a small disagreement and I was forced to walk a thousand mile with them .
It was insane , ridiculous and humiliating .
Just as I thought it was over(and that was when I reached home),I had this huge disagreement with my brothers and parents(my family members ) .-I wish I could bottle up my anger and just stay calm .
But I didn't .
And as a result ?
I vent my anger on BILLY .-POOR THING you know.?
I kicked BILLY when she was trying to cheer me up !
This picture is dedicated to her.............
A cat has a lifespan of approximately 15 years if I'm not wrong . And that's too short ! TOO SHORT !
I can't live without her !
She's the only one who really love me .
I'm sorry dear ..............
peace..........
-Shay
Hello readers .
Since it's midnight ..
I would like to talk about.............
Love............
Firstly; I'm sorry for the font . or rather the colour of the font .
But don't blame me .
You know that''love is in the air'' .?-and i'm in love...(i am?)
SO here goes................
Love hurts. Burns. Kills. Whatever you wanna put it. Love at this age is only an infatuation towards the opposite sex. It brings you troubles, it brings you sins. Love at this age makes you slip away from your family bit by bit, and makes it hard for you to study. Talking all night, sleeping all day, unhealthy. Love can also influence you into doing things you'd never imagine doing. Like running away. Like not coming home. Like sex. Love pretends to hover close and protect you, but by fact it's actually just you, forming images of all worthwhile trust and faith. Love immitates courage and pretends to treasure. Love starts beautifully, shaping itself into sunshine and butterflies and rainbows and rainy hearts. Then, it betrays you and hurts you, torturing your emotional room, physically tormenting you, literally screaming at you. Then, love leaves you, having done its deed. SO you see, love is bad. It's stupid. It's worthless. It's dumb. It burns. Love burns.
SOMEBODY PLEASE, PROVE ME WRONG.
And yes .
Somebody did just that .-proving me wrong .
Ok .
Time for me to sleep already .
Goodnight .
Lots of love;
-Shay
Whoah . Yes whoah .
And 'Assalamualaikum' to all .-may peace be upon you,readers.
I've been missing out .
Neh , More like being forgetful about some stuff .
Haziq birthday.?
Wow . I totally forgot .
Ok .............
Anyways , about Skiee .
I was inform about her vacation thingy .
I hope you'll be alright there .
Next;sorry for not posting .
Busy with some stuff.
Going out with my mum to somewhere .
Somewhere................
And then , going out with my sugar to somewhere .
Somewhere............
Oh yea . To Skiee;everything seems to be going my way now..
Well,pretty much .
It's a good thing that everything seems to be going to plan .
Except one .
OK. Enough . Enough .
Alright . I think I'm done .
Sorry for the boring post today .
Yes . That's me . I'm a very boring person indeed .
It will only get interesting when I have too much problems in my life .
And that happens a lot of time . -which is kinda frustating and yes suckish .
Ok . Didn't I said enough already .?
I think I've been complaining way too much .
It's time for me to...........
Just enjoy my life-which is impossible I guess .
That's why they said;
''YOU HAVE TO LOSE
TO LEARN HOW TO WIN.''
Ok . I'll end this post .Peace !
Lots of love;
-Shay
heyyo there !
the most important thing right now is that i'm really aware that my twin is really really sad..i will be going to malaysia in another 21 hours time..so when i come back,it's gonna be my duty to make her happy..shay,kene rindukn skiee tau..i will definately miss you even more as i've been missing you since the last time we met..and bout those pictures that you uploaded,i won't be asking you to remove them coz this blog does not belong to me alone..alrite..maybe this would be my last post till the 15th unless i get to use the computer there and be able to update this blog..but just like we all know,usually there won't be computers in those kampung style houses rite..unless i'm lucky enough and we'll be going back to the condominium(putra place)..i'll take some pictures of the goats there..and i'll upload them here..hehe..i'm looking forward to this so called vacation but i'm having second thoughts as my grandma is still sick in the hosp and none of my parents will be going with me..(not even my brother)..hmm..so i'll try to mange by myself..i'm planning on buying haziq's patrick star if they do sell..hmm..i will definately get my twinnie sumting too..i'm sure you're curious of who i'll be staying with as my parents aren't coming along rite ?.. well,i'll be staying at my aunty's place in penang..she has two houses and owns a goat farm..she takes care of the goat herself..besides goats,she also has chickens and turkeys..i'll be going there with two of my other cousins..i hope i'll have fun..okayy that's about it so i'll end y post now..
-wanniie.skiee-
(Sigh)
Yes (sigh) and hello readers .
Well .
Today seems to be the bestest day ever.(NOT)
I think I'm about to lose my mind .-not literally ofcause .
Hmm . There's just too much , way too much things going on with my life .
Rejected ....
in life .
Family problem is one thing .
Love is the other thing .
I don't know .
All this jinx ....
I mean why me.?
At some point , I was hoping that all this misery will end soon but it just get worse every minute .
This jinx ......(sigh)
Just make my life miserable ......
Am I that unlucky.?.
If not then why everyone treated me like I'm born to be treated that way .?
-Should I blame myself for letting everyone treated me like that.?
-Or should I specifically put the blame on my parents for driving me nuts everyday.?
-OR is it God.?-GOD is the one who should be blame .
GOD is the one who's being unfair to me .
Or maybe.... This is fate .
Its already written on my book .-That I'm going to lead a jinx life .
Being unlucky , social reject and all the jinx things .
OK . I exaggerated a bit but seriously, I think I NEED to see a psychiatrist .
Because I'm already losing my mind .-to think straight, to think right .
I NEED to be placed somewhere far from my family members(namely my parents) and friends.
I NEED to be alone .
I NEED to rest .-both physically and mentally .
I just want to be..............
relax .
I mean no pressure from anyone .
Hmm..
You know what.?
Sometimes,I wonder why GOD wants me here.?-on earth . with my family .
Why must I be alive.?
again .
I mean .
I'm already dead .
But I'm alive again .
Why?
Why should there be a need for reincarnation.?-not so sure if this is the right word .
Well , I just have one request to ask .
LET ME DIE . in peace .
Only then , people will stop disturbing me.
People will stop making my life miserable .
Only then , people will feel remorseful about what they did to me .-They felt so bad that their heath had deteriorated and they DIE........................
Hmm. Believe me , this world will be much better without them . without us . Human beings .
''it hurts me to see you smile,
it makes you smile to see me hurt.''-to him .
-Shay
Hello december .
It's a month to be jolly because it's winter !-(in singapore!)-.-
Well , it's been like ages since I post .
And I'm truly sorry for that .
First of all it's about 5am , and I'm still bright awake .(thanks to the unpredictable disease-huh?)
The pain was unbearable ; it was like a form of abusement to myself .
And yes . All thanks to that box of strawberry or should I say boxes?
Next; about my part not updating this blog-I had a very busy schedule lately .
-attend a teacher's wedding .
-went to cold storage with my bro .
went to supermarket with my mum .
-going crazy and emotional .
and the list goes on...
Well , there's just too much things going on with my life .
Some were heartbreaking moments .
While others are just to painful to remember .-(funny but isn't it the same thing? heartbreaking and painful . )
There were a few though that makes me happy . Unfortunately , there's just far too many things that makes me.........don't even want to think about it....
Oh yea , I realised something ; that dreams can be true . -(Dejavu?)
As I realised that my dreams were mostly true , most of them came to reality .
But , those dreams are not the 'planned' dream .
It came by itself .
Without me planning it . (something I always do before I go to sleep)
But there's a catch .
Not all dreams(which came true) are great .
I won't deny the fact that some of the dreams makes me very happy .
But , there were some thats makes me.......................sad.
''Happiness is hard to find .''
'' When you find it , you better hold on tight . ''
''When the music is on , there's bound to be trouble''-Adapt from the mentalist .
And with that I'll end this post .
-Shay
heyys..
i'm finally back from such a long holiday..(sampai empat kereta 8-sitter pergi..lol)..it was supposed to be a 2-days-1-night thing but ended up being 5-days-4-nights thing..[to shay : sorry for not informing you bout the extension of the outing..my battery went flat and i did not bring my charger as i wasn't ready for a long one..] alrite,now i'll tell you about what happened back at sentosa..basically we did different things on different days..
day one : we went for the fort siloso tour..it was damn tiring as the tramp left us at one place and we had to walk and explore the place ourself..we even got lost as we were not familiar with that place..i was wearing 2 pieces of t-shirts and 2 pairs of pants..it really made my life even more miserable..then we went back to the chalet,took a bathe and got ourselves changed..we had our dinner and went to watch 'songs of the sea'
day two : we went to the under water world..we saw sharks and unbelievably big fishes like sting ray..there were some who were stuck to the glass..i also found out that the cleaners were supposed to swim inside the tank or aquarium(i duno what it's called)..and so may people were like gathering around it just because they want to take a picture of the cleaner.. we also went to do some shopping..we bought some swimsuits,slippers and bags..
day three : we woke up quite late as we were exhausted after two very long days..it was almost 2pm when i went out of the shower.. we changed into the appropriate attire and went to the beach..we spend hours just having fun in the sea..we even played hopscotch and a marble game..it was really hard to play hop scotch with our foot wear on..we met someone at the beach..his name was captain palawan and we played games with him..he was very friendly but i love his hair the most..L0L..he told us to count to 50 facing the front and then to look for him..we searched everywhere but we still could not find him so we decided to give up on him..we went to clean ourselves up..i didnt know we took quite a long time as when we went out of the shower room,for all we know it was already dark..we went back to the chalet,had our dinner and went to sleep..
day four : on day four we spent more time in the chalet..at about 2+,we went out and visited the dolphin lagoon..dolphins are seriously very cute..we enjoyed it very much..we went to the gift shop to buy a few dolphin plushies..i bought one for myself too but i gave it to my cousin as she liked it..i know i'm kind-hearted..hehe..it was the last night we would be spending there so we decided to watch the songs of the sea again..i really enjoyed it and i admire the way they emphasize the main point,that is multi-racial in singapore..i am very sure the younger ones would enjoy it the most..
day five : we checked out early as we already planned the day..we went to escape theme park after having our lunch..i was having the time of my life..we ran about the whole theme park acting like kids..we also went in the haunted house..it was really scary..i don't recommend it for shay..there was a man in a skeleton suit following us wherever we..there were even cemetery..i was so scared that i grabbed hold of my cousin's hand..i looked down all the way..i screamed all the way till the end..there was a point where i didnt want to continue the journey but since was holding on to my cousin's hand,he pulled me and told me to look down if i was scared..[sumpah muke pucat biler keluar]..we washed up at the toilet there and went for dinner at beach road..it was difficult to find seats as there were 33 of us in total..(sumpah kecoh)..we spent hours just eating and reached home at about 12+...
-wanniie.skiee-Labels: i wish it would happen again
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